Yesterday was a tough day. I got up early to watch the referendum results coming in and my heart sank as no after no came in. It actually felt like a death in the family. Work was very flat so we sat chatting and eating malteasers. A power cut and phone lines down ensued we had to sit down and ‘it was lovely to discuss our hopes and dreams for Scotland and more importantly our daughters. Our own daughters and the daughters we work with every day.
The wee lady had been with my folks for a few days and was full of the joys of being spoiled ( in the best possible way) and lots of chat. We had a good chat about the vote and how it was important to do it. she may only be 5 but having been involved in various things from anti- trident marches, helping prepare things for soup kitchen, fundraising…..this wee lady has a tremendous sense of social justice already and I am not planning on letting down her or any of the other daughters ( and sons) I work with.
I am one of the 45% who voted yes because I want to see a positive change for her. A lot of my friends are hurt and sore that we missed the biggest opportunity to bring about social change. However, it has galvanised me into really getting something done for my daughter. For her future. Scenes in Glasgow last night were shameful, they are a minority, but a loud, ugly and violent minority. A change needs to happen.
Mammy points – 10 ( selfishly)
Manolos – pretty high, pink converse usually score well 8
Methodology – 8
One of my all time favourite tunes pretty much summed up today! So the alarms went off and OH jumped out of bed. Wee lady couldn’t get her eyes open as she was loaded with cold and my head was not for moving. The shop was indeed shut! Absolutely no way we could send the wee lady in to school.
Dilemma number 1. Phone grandma and go to work? Or use a wee day to spend at home.
Loved the fact that my daddy answered the phone with ” is the baby ok? ” aye Dad, I’m fine.
Daddy picked up princess and I was in a fast black to work.
Chat with the taxi driver fairly kept my mind off that feeling of guilt as I told myself I was luckier than most that I could call Grandma and that again,I was off to play mammy at least for a few hours to some wee ones who maybe really needed it.
OH was texting full of the joys of his first lecture and has made pals already.
Arrived in work to nonsense and promptly shut my room door( a rare occurrence!) silently pleading for no one to ask me how I was. You know that woman thing of exhaustion so that only a good cry will do that makes men run a mile? Yep, I am that wreck, or I was.
A few situs at work that needed mulled over.
Dilemma number 2. Ignore the paperwork and spend time in proper professional dialogue or push paper and ignore friends. Sorry jefe – you’ll need to whistle for the paperwork. Found a hidey hole and stayed there.
Lunchtime brought some intense chat with a pal from a other school that left me wanting to do some sever damage with the green and blacks ( that’s chocolate and not some power tool to the brain )to myself.
A double HF class was enough to give me my mojo back and the day ended better at school than it started.
Nae paperwork, nae emails, just teaching.
Quite liked it actually.
One of the things I want to take forward on here is my biggest challenge with my seniors -growing their confidence! It kills me that these bright beautiful children do not believe in themselves. I’ll keep you posted.
So, my third dilemma is to go to bed or play catch up…..it’s only Monday!
Little lady is snoring, OH reading with one eye on the footie. I’m in my Jammies.
Mammy points – 5/10
Manolo points – 0 – the old bones were fuming at me so it was birkies to work
Methodology points – some pretty good work going on but not at my best, let’s say a 6.
It cannae get any worse???
Right, stop pretending you are a minion!! A wee bit of the Bee Gees always has wan shaking wan’s shammy. I love this quote about embracing change and dancing with it.
It is a time of major change from the massive things that are happening in society, the changes in education that impact on our day-to-day ability to deliver and family change.
Making a change requires the time to think about it, to mull it over and maybe even have a wee dance about it. I’ll leave aside the big question that most of us in ALBA are talking about the noo and take two big changes going on. Change in school- there’s a quote saying one of the worst things we can ever say is ” we’ve always done it like that” Change is good when it is thought out, when there is a tangible impact and when we can dance with it. Change works when you can scaffold it and support it. The biggest test of all is when a learner gets it and can explain it to you.
Family change can be a challenge: adjusting to new routines, sorting out the logistics of the wee people, not worrying too much about it and still finding time to dance. OH starts his teacher training next week after a lengthy stretch in the Law. ( no, not on holiday with her majesty!) that type of change takes time and a big pair of brave pants!
To have the courage to really change is about believing in it, in yourself and taking that first step. Oh aye and having a wee boogie.
Mammy points – 10/10 there is a lot of dancing goes on chez nous
Methodology points – 9/10 there were indeed some changes today
Manolo points – fat frock and sandals on today nil points